Dalam Kesamaran

Kadang-kadang dalam kehidupan  kita boleh secara tiba-tiba rasa tidak pasti. Apabila berada dalam kesamaran dan kekeliruan maka kita pinta pada Nya untuk bantu menyuluh jalan yang terang. In 2005 i was torn whether to choose my career now or shud i be a teacher. After 3 nites.. sudddenly i was so sure that i wanna be what i am now. i braved the interview coz i know, Allah helped me in making that decision. The decision i never regret.

After 7 years.. Llast nite i did Solat Istikharah again. I am in a dilemma. Shud i? shud i not? to Him i prayed to lighten the path for me to choose... and i shud do nite after nite until i am sure which i shud take.


اللَّهُمَّ إِنِّيْ أَسْتَخِيْرُكَ بِعِلْمِكَ ، وَأَسْتَقْدِرُكَ بِقُدْرَتِكَ ، وَأَسْأَلُكَ مِنْ فَضْلِكَ الْعَظِيْمِ فَإِنَّكَ تَقْدِرُ وَلاَ أَقْدِرُ، وَتَعْلَمُ وَلاَ أَعْلَمُ ، وَأَنْتَ عَلاَّمُ الْغُيُوبُ ، اللَّهُمَّ إِنْ كُنْتَ تَعْلَمُ أَنْ هَذَا الأَمْرَ .... خَيْرٌ لِيْ فِي دِيْنِي وَمَعَاشِي وَعَاقِبَةِ أَمْرِي عَاجِلَهُ وَآجِلَهُ فَاقْدِرْهُ لِي وَيَسِّرْهُ لِي ، ثُمَّ بَارِكْ لِي فِيْهِ ، وَإِنْ كُنْتَ تَعْلَمُ أَنَّ هَذَا الأَمْرَ.... شَرٌّ لِي فِي دِيْنِي وَمَعَاشِي وَعَاقِبَةِ أَمْرِي عَاجِلَهُ وآجِلَهُ فَاصْرِفْهُ عَنِّي وَاصْرِفْنِيْ� عَنْهُ ، وَاقْدُرهُ لِيْ الخَيْرَ حَيْثُ كَانَ ، ثُمَّ ارْضِِى بِهِ

Maksudnya : "Ya Allah ! Aku pohon pilihan (minta petunjuk) daripada Engkau dengan pengetahuan Engkau dan aku pohon ketentuan Engkau dengan kekuasaan Engkau dan aku pohon akan Dikau dari limpah kurniaan Engkau yang besar, maka sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Berkuasa sedangkan aku tidak berkuasa dan Engkau Maha Mengetahui sedangkan aku tidak mengetahui segala perkara ghaib.

Ya Allah! Seandainya Engkau mengetahui bahawasanya urusan ini ___. Berkebajikan bagiku pada agamaku, kehidupanku dan kesudahan urusanku sama ada cepat atau lambat, maka takdirlah akan dia baik dan permudahkannya bagiku kemudian berkatkan bagiku padanya dan seandainya Engkau mengetahui bahawa urusan ini ___. Mendatangkan keburukan bagiku pada agamaku, kehidupanku dan akibat urusanku cepat atau lambat, maka palinglah akan dia daripadaku dan palinglah akan seberapa yang boleh, kemudian redhalah akan daku dengannya" (sebutkan urusan yang dimaksudkan di tempat yang bertitik).

Aminn

First love. Cinta pertama saya.. Kepada..

I have always been sceptical about slimming products. Be it if u have to wear it. If u have to consume it. Maybe because im always and i am stingy when it comes to Money (rm, rm, ka-chingg!). It doesnt help when i becaome accounting student, hehe. I do account balacing like everyday n i make sure i have extra before abah bank in the next allowance.

It was during my uni years that i 1st heard about PB-Premium Beautiful. A corset that is said to have infra red embedded in it to help increase metabolism, reshape ur body and others lah. But seriously i cant afford it. It costs more than rm2000++. i was still a student at that time so.. Ok lah, bye bye PB is all i can say.

More or less 10 years later, suddenly a friend of mine posted in fb that she's wearing PB n her lines of stretchmarks' visibility greatly reduced! N the best part, her husband's the one who noticed it (ok, i did make fun to her what on earth was she wearing that her husband gets to notice it!!!i didnt wait for any reply tho haha!). So i, (sepantas kilat) quickly pm her thru fb n asking her all dquestions like does it really help to countour her body as claimed? Bonus point was when she mentioned that PB helps in reducing backpain. Thats it! But.. BUT.. Too expensive la fren.. Where got money to pay u cash lumpsum like that one???

Never fear, installments accepted! So im like 'whaaaaa?'. Terus beli yer. Bayar ansuran bulanan. Dah nak masuk 2 bulan pakai satu set yang terdiri daripada 3 keping pakaian dalam yang berwarna hitam.

Long Bra

Long Girdle

Waist Nipper

 So then i dilligently and realigiously wear the PB set like theres no tomorrow. Remember that im a stingy person kan? Dah beli mahal2, ribew-ribew takkan tak pakai! Rugi wooooooo!!!

Tapi.. PB ada satu set ajer. Bila nak basuh kalo hari2 pakai? Peeps, PB is made from very light material yet sturdy enough to regain bak to its original shape after long hours of wearing. It is advised that u wear it for 4 hours but strongly recommended that u wear it for 8 hours. So u weat it at the office n when u come home then take it off n wash it. No need to use detergents, i use free shampoo from hotels to soak my preciousssssss PB and gently, very lightly brush it using my fingers to clean the armpit spot. Then just rinse with water. Easy-peasy kan? Then i use clean towel to pat dry my precious PB. Like i said, rm2000+ for 3 piece set of lingerie means the world to a mere government servan like me. Then just hang to dry under the spinning fan. Kan ke semudah 1, 2, 3 tuhh. Hehe.

After one week. I noticed that my stretchmarks is not as visible as before. Wah!

Okey hasrat di hati nak tulis panjaaang lagi mengenai cinta pertama saya kepadaPB ni tapi intan2 saya dah berebut nak ipad. Dan suami saya juga dah memberikan jelingan tajam kepada saya. Ye lah, ye lah! Mama beralah. Takpe, blog oleh update. Tapi anak2 nombor satu yer.

Daaaaa!

Procratinate : Menangguh-nangguhkan

Okey saya ada masalah ini. Ini hobi. EH buka hobi, ni habit yang sukar nak dikawal. Keje bertangguh. Kenapa bertangguh? sebab kadang2 kita rasa sulit sangat nak buat. Atau mungkin sebab boss tak bagi dateline. Kalau boss bagi dateline misti sepantas kilat  kan nak usahakan biar sempat hantar jam-jam itu juga kann?

Masalah sekarang nie.. saya berkobar-kobar nak mula update blog nie. Blog ni dulu saya tujukan khas buat suami saya yang waktu itu jauh dari rumah, dari kami sekeluarga. Kena plak masa tuh beliau takde FB maka saya buat blog la agar belaiu senang nak pantau. Amek gambar anak-anak (laaa, dah veranak ekk popuan nieee), amek gambar aktiviti harian. So that he wont feel left out (and also to make him misses us more LOL!)

Tapi tuh la.. mak nie buta IT. nak blog bagai tapi pengetahuan kureng. Ko tengok ni, doif tepi-tepi blog nie mana ada apa-apa.. kena g tuntut ilmu ngan adik saya nie. Jadi, untuk merangsang diri dan membakor semangat maka saya telah meng-update status di FB bahawa saya nak update blog yang dah tertinggal ni. Owh. Sib baek dapat komen membina. Kalo dapat kejian dan kutukan? Harus tukar gambar frofail fakai furdah uols!

haluuu

yup. its been in a hiatus mode far too long. too many things, too busy, too much problems, ups n downs in my life.

been crazy.. n it gets crazier when u think its been lunatic enough.

I've been at the lowest point of my life. Where i can hardly get up and face the world. BUt i am now here to prove myself that it was over. Let rewrite the history, i say to myself. Enjoy the sunshine, feel the breeze touching my face, appreciate every second of my life. so why not start sharing with people yea? need to hold my head up high, suck my tummy in and smile, big ~ BIG smile :-D

of course there are moments worth treasured. my little intans, my best half-hubby. happy moments. lil thing that made u smile. bestest of friends. people. n i get older this year. ouch!